“Found in Your Wings”
The chapter starts out with Asami in school. She is one of the first students in school, and notices Megumi’s desk out in a hallway by her classroom. It’s a typical Japanese bullying; someone is purposefully placing Megumi’s desk out in the hallway to be mean. Asami notice this and quickly carries the desk back inside. As she do so, girls who were already in class warn her to not to do so because Asami will be the next victim. (You know, if you help the one being bullied, you will be bullied also.) Asami smiles and says “I’m fine” and continues. She thinks in her head; “sometimes, even though you can see the outcome, you can pretend to not see it.” Asami understands how it feels to be bullied because she still has to deal with her classmates teasing her for the size of her breasts. But thanks to her friends, she was able to start thinking that the negative things other people say about her aren’t everything about her.
Asami’s narration: “I don’t understand the degree of what Megumi has to deal with. But people tend to remember bad moments more than happy times. As much as I can, to the best of my abilities, it would be nice for those things (bullying), even a little, to be prevented.”
As she says this, she is carrying back Megumi’s desk inside the classroom every morning. She’s happy that she comes to school before Megumi. Meanwhile Megumi is dealing with letters being left in her shoe box which has mean writings on them. She handles them as “a price for my past actions. For lying to everyone, but I can’t pretend to be the fake Megumi anymore. ” and moves on.
One day Megumi comes in earlier than usual and sees Asami carrying the desk. Megumi yells assuming that Asami is doing something wrong. Other classmates join in the scene as they all agree on how Megumi has a bad personality; even though Asami is being nice and carrying her desk back in when someone else left it outside, Megumi’s yelling at Asami. Megumi obviously didn’t know that that’s what Asami has been doing, and pauses for a second. Megumi then asked why Asami is doing this and she replies that she couldn’t watch when this is happening to someone who is nice to her. Megumi immediately tells her that she is wrong. Megumi was pretending to be a nice person before, but it was all an act and Asami was part of her show. Asami is aware of that but it doesn’t change the fact that Asami was only accepting all the nice things Megumi offered her but never returned any. Asami tells Megumi that she doesn’t dislike her and she doesn’t want to see her get hurt from what other people are doing to her. Megumi blushes and apologize for yelling at her before, and thanks her.
Megumi’s narration: “I want to accept everything that I’ve done in the past, and then revise myself.”
Another day: Megumi goes to the hair salon and tells her hair stylist that she just wants something fresh. Megumi’s narration: “Lies hurts those around you, and yourself. From now on, I won’t take actions that would observe another person’s face in response, or hurt relationships that are close and not close. I want to live as the real Megumi Kitagawa.”
Her hair is being chopped off as she says this. Megumi’s hair is really short now and her hair stylist asks her again if that’s what she wanted. It was. A new fresh look for the new Megumi.
Megumi is at her modeling company the following day and many are disappointed that she cut her hair, saying that longer hair was prettier. One of the other models there compliments her new look, and she says that she wish she can cut her hair also, but if she does that then she would lose her fans and people would write negative comments online. Just like how Megumi used to be controlled by what people would say of her; this model cannot change her looks to satisfy what the fans are expecting her to be. Megumi is over that phase, and says “So what? If you keep worrying about that you will never be able to do what you want to do. It’s normal for people to have their own opinions, so let them say it. I don’t want to be affected by what others are saying behind my back. I want to live in the front.” (Megumi looked really cool when she said that)
Megumi’s narration: “What’s good and what’s bad is not something others decide for you, it’s what you feel about it. If you think ‘I don’t like this’ for even a moment, then your mind will be full of negative things. But bad things usually doesn’t last that long. If you look at it in the long run, the bad thing that’s happening at the moments isn’t going to rule everything in your future. No matter what happens, you have to look forward.”
As she says this, she is modeling for a cover of Desert’s most popular model. (Desert is the name of the magazine she usually models for)
Yamato is reading the article about it in school as Megumi walks by. So he compliments her picture saying that her face is good there and he can tell that she’s a pro. Megumi blushes and runs away as she thinks about how Kai commented on her before on how she doesn’t like anybody. I guess Megumi really is in love with Yamato after all. Mei also walks by as Megumi continues runs blushing.